34 Howls: [Accidental video]

[coyote_walking]

Mercy's clearly inanimate body was laid out on Thomas' bed where it had been since he'd brought it there Monday night. He'd cleaned it up and placed it in a place she'd recognize when she woke up.

If she woke up.

The camera was focused on the body for nearly a minute before there was a sudden startling gasp for breath and Mercy sat bolt upright with a cry, scrabbling backwards on the bed and grasping at her chest where she'd been shot.

"THOMAS!"

Comments

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

... No. It doesn't change how I feel about him.

If I was mated to Adam right now... I couldn't ever be with Thomas, but I'm not.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Even if you were here for a while without Adam?

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I don't think I could.

Mating is forever. It's soul to soul and forever.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

That's intense.

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

It is.

I'm not sure I'll ever have it.

But Kyle says... So... maybe.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Do you want it?

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

To have something like that?

Yeah.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Why? Doesn't it scare you?

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Yeah, but I want it.

To belong.

To be loved so much.

I want it.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

It... can be nice.

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Yeah?

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

I only knew Richard a few days, but our other sides just...I don't know. They clicked with each other. I think that side decided for us that we would be together. I was so happy with him, I was willing to give up Mutant X and leave it all behind for a normal life. A life with someone who knew what I felt and who knew me. It was nice.

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

It sounds really wonderful.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

It...was. I never thought I'd want something like that but with him I did. And I let myself believe I could have it. As he was dying he told me not to cry because he was dying a happy man, he'd found someone who accepted him and he was in love.

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Oh Shal...

I'm so sorry.

But I'm happy you had it.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

It's fine, it was a few years ago. A lot of time to get over it, it's not like he would have lived much longer anyway if he'd stayed a New Mutant.

I hope if you get something like that you can keep it.

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Thanks. Me too.

Not that I don't love Thomas. Just... I'm always aware that if it gets to that all-encompassing really true love part? We'll never be able to touch again.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

At least you have love with him, that's happiness there.

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

It is. And I am very happy.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

That's good. I'm not sure if I ever want happiness like that.

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Well, I hope you find whatever type of happiness you do want.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

If I do I'll probably just run from it.

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Yeah, we need to work on that with you.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

My desire to not be hurt out weighs my desire to be happy.

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I understand that.