10 Howls: unsettled
Jul. 13th, 2009 11:00 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
coyote_walkingKyle...
I think...
If anyone needs me, I think I'm just going to stay here in my room today.
Or maybe I'll shift and just run as long and as hard and as far as I can.
I'm a little... unsettled by yesterday.
I think...
If anyone needs me, I think I'm just going to stay here in my room today.
I'm a little... unsettled by yesterday.
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Date: Monday, July 13th, 2009 03:49 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: Monday, July 13th, 2009 05:06 pm (UTC)No, that's not right. I was me. Just a me who'd made a different choice.
I was married to Sam, pregnant with his child, and...
Kyle? I was so happy. I belonged somewhere for the first time in my life.
And now I'm alone again.
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Date: Monday, July 13th, 2009 05:08 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Monday, July 13th, 2009 05:15 pm (UTC)But I've never belonged. Not to the werewolves, not with my mother, not at school, not with the humans. There's no one like me, no place I can just be.
You and Warren were - are - my only real friends.
And back home I had my shop and I could pretend, but...
Yesterday... yesterday I knew what it was like to be loved. For real loved. And to have a place where I was supposed to be.
Today I just hurt.
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Date: Monday, July 13th, 2009 05:19 pm (UTC)That's what the City does. But I promise you are loved and you do belong somewhere.
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Date: Monday, July 13th, 2009 05:31 pm (UTC)Did I make a mistake running away all those years ago?
But... Thank you.
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Date: Monday, July 13th, 2009 05:33 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Monday, July 13th, 2009 05:40 pm (UTC)Bran was right to warn me.
But when I left... it was more than that. His wolf wanted me too. For a mate.
If staying with him meant I would have ended up as happy as I was yesterday... Maybe I did.
But I guess, honestly, knowing just what I did then... I'd run again.
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Date: Monday, July 13th, 2009 05:43 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: Monday, July 13th, 2009 05:47 pm (UTC)I want to ask you so many questions, but I know I can't.
But really? There's someone?
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Date: Monday, July 13th, 2009 05:51 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Monday, July 13th, 2009 05:55 pm (UTC)But it's good to know I'll belong somewhere eventually.
Thank you.
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Date: Monday, July 13th, 2009 05:59 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: Monday, July 13th, 2009 11:25 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Tuesday, July 14th, 2009 02:22 am (UTC)It made me reconsider some decisions I've made.
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Date: Tuesday, July 14th, 2009 02:31 am (UTC)no subject
Date: Tuesday, July 14th, 2009 02:35 am (UTC)And happy.
Rogue? For the first time ever in my life I wasn't alone. I belonged somewhere.
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Date: Tuesday, July 14th, 2009 02:39 am (UTC)no subject
Date: Tuesday, July 14th, 2009 02:42 am (UTC)Part of me wants to just hide in my room for a while and another part wants to shift and just run as hard and as far as I can, till I'm too tired to run anymore.
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Date: Tuesday, July 14th, 2009 02:46 am (UTC)no subject
Date: Tuesday, July 14th, 2009 02:48 am (UTC)But thank you. I appreciate your wanting to help.
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Date: Tuesday, July 14th, 2009 02:52 am (UTC)You're welcome sugar, I know it must be really tough.
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Date: Tuesday, July 14th, 2009 02:54 am (UTC)I could have all that now for real.
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Date: Tuesday, July 14th, 2009 05:12 am (UTC)no subject
Date: Tuesday, July 14th, 2009 05:14 am (UTC)I just... need some time to let it go.
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Date: Tuesday, July 14th, 2009 06:39 am (UTC)no subject
Date: Tuesday, July 14th, 2009 03:42 pm (UTC)