48 Howls: So hungry...

[coyote_walking]

Guess I'm making up for all those days I barely ate a thing. Today I'm just starving. Everything tastes so good and I just can't seem to get enough.

And I have this craving for jelly donuts. Weird, right?

I'm heading out to get some if anybody needs anything from the bakery.

Comments

Re: Private//Unhackable

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Doesn't have to be my fault. I still wish you could have been happier.

Thanks, Thomas. You know where to find me as well.

Private//Unhackable

[prodigalvampire]

I wish I could have been what you needed. Wishes aren't getting us anywhere, though.

I do.

Re: Private//Unhackable

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Nope. Never have and never will. I can still wish you well, though, and hope you're happier now.

Private//Unhackable

[prodigalvampire]

I am. Happier now, I mean. But it's not because we're not together, though it is part of it. I...I wanted to be there for you, but I couldn't. Not because we're not compatible, but because I can't.....Mercy, I felt like I was cheating...with you. On, Justine. She never had a say in it, and...when I told her about you....the sadness in her eyes...I knew I was right. I was. I was trying to move on, and with all the other stuff that was broken in my head it was a bad idea, obviously, but I was trying nonetheless. I'm sorry I dragged you along for the worst roller-coaster ride the world has ever seen. You didn't deserve it, and I know there isn't really anything I can do or say to change it or make it better, but I just wanted you to know.

Re: Private//Unhackable

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

[There's a long pause before her next answer and she has to make sure she's completely composed. He is happier, partly because they're not together, he felt like he was cheating with her... She can't think about any of that. Not right now.]

Oh. Okay. Well... thanks for letting me know.

Private//Unhackable

[prodigalvampire]

I'm sorry, Mercy.

Re: Private//Unhackable

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

It's okay, Thomas.

I'm just glad you're happier.

Re: Private//Unhackable

[prodigalvampire]

Part of me wishes I'd never tried this. If I hadn't, it would have saved you a lot of trouble. And a lot of heartache.

Re: Private//Unhackable

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

[Another long pause.]

I'll be fine, Thomas.

Re: Private//Unhackable

[prodigalvampire]

I hope so. Please don't give up on my account.

Re: Private//Unhackable

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I've pretty much figured out that I'm a failure on relationships, but other than that...

Re: Private//Unhackable

[prodigalvampire]

Are you even reading what I'm typing? You. Were. Amazing. I. Used. You.

Re: Private//Unhackable

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I am reading.

But here's the thing. Even if you were just using me - which hurts just to think about - and if I'm so amazing, then how come I didn't know? I didn't. Not with you and not with Samuel.

I don't date anyone for ten years and then this?

I appreciate what you're saying and I understand you truly believe what you say, but look at the facts. I'm hopeless at this stuff.

Private//Unhackable

[prodigalvampire]

Most people who are being used don't know, especially when the person doing the using didn't know.

Re: Private//Unhackable

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I'm sure you're right, Thomas.

I just... I'm still feeling raw.

Re: Private//Unhackable

[prodigalvampire]

I know, but you have no reason to hate yourself. I'm not saying I'm right. I'm just saying you blaming yourself doesn't make any sense to me.

Re: Private//Unhackable

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I hear you.

Thank you.

Re: Private//Unhackable

[prodigalvampire]

Don't mention it.

Re: Private//Unhackable

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I guess... I guess I'll talk to you later, then.