37 Howls: Aftermath

[coyote_walking]

That was... well... I'm glad it's over.




Thomas... I have to talk to you. About the mistletoe curse.






Hey, look. No hard feelings, right? This doesn't have to affect our friendship at all. It was just a stupid curse, right?






I, um... just want you to know that as far as I'm concerned, that never happened. I mean, it did, but it was just the curse and not something, well... real. I just don't want us feeling all awkward about it okay?

Comments

Re: Private

[prodigalvampire]

I don't know. I don't know this Priestly guy. I wouldn't mind if you slept with Harry if that clears anything up.

Re: Private

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Not... not really.

I guess maybe I'm a little naive, but for me, when I'm in a relationship with someone, I don't do, well... anything with anyone else.

Are you... does this mean you feel like it's okay for you to sleep with other people? Because I'd... I'd be really hurt if you were. I don't think I could be with you if you slept with someone else - other than, you know a curse you can't help and even then I'd feel a little uneasy.

Re: Private

[prodigalvampire]

What's the big deal with being exclusive? I mean...that would be like saying I could only go out to eat with you.

Re: Private

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I guess... sex - that kind of intimacy - is important to me. It's not something I do lightly or with someone I don't really care about.

I mean, I haven't so much as dated in ten years.

But... I suppose I can see that as an incubus, sex would be different for you.

...

Thomas... are you sleeping with other people?

Private

[prodigalvampire]

I...haven't...and the reason why is probably going to make this worse, not better whatever "this" is turning into.

Re: Private

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Okay. Go ahead. Tell me.

Re: Private

[prodigalvampire]

I haven't because I didn't want to lose control again and hurt someone I've never met before. With you it was different.

Re: Private

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Why is it different?

Re: Private

[prodigalvampire]

You know the risks and you want to anyway.

Re: Private

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I... don't know what to say about that.

Re: Private

[prodigalvampire]

Well, what are you thinking?

Re: Private

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

That I suddenly feel really insecure and a little frightened.

Private

[prodigalvampire]

What are you scared of?

Re: Private

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I guess that I feel like I've opened myself up so much to you and in some ways taken such a chance, what with... everything and it all feels like it could come down like a house of cards if you just find someone else you can have sex with.

I didn't realize it meant so little to you and as stupid as it probably sounds to you, it kind of makes me feel like maybe I mean that little to you. And I know, at least I really think that I'm really important to you, but...

I can't think about sex that way.

Re: Private

[prodigalvampire]

I don't know how to convince you otherwise.

Re: Private

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

About sex, you mean?

Re: Private

[prodigalvampire]

Yeah. You mean a lot more than sex to me, Mercy.

Re: Private

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Okay. Okay then.

If relief could come through a keyboard, it would definitely be coming through this one.

I'm glad. I thought so, but it's good to hear.

Just... just don't go sleeping with anyone else while we're together, okay? Or at least tell me if that needs to change?

Re: Private

[prodigalvampire]

I'll do what I can, Mercy, but...I can't promise that. I can promise I'll do my best to let you know if that needs to change but...I couldn't have predicted the thing with Kyle, and if that happens again...well, I just don't want to break a promise.

Re: Private

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

That's different. I'd never ask you to promise something like that. If you're hurt or cursed or something just happens, there's nothing you can do.

I just... please don't go off and decide to have casual sex with someone because you have an itch or she's gorgeous or you feel like someone better different from me. It would... I couldn't handle that. The other, I can.

Re: Private

[prodigalvampire]

That I can promise.

Re: Private

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Then we're all good.

Re: Private

[prodigalvampire]

Good. Okay.

Re: Private

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry I got so freaked about it.

Re: Private

[prodigalvampire]

It's understandable. You didn't know what I meant.