I thought he was - we were... Doesn't matter. I was stupid to think anyone would stay with me.
I don't want to curse him. I just... I don't even know what I just.
I guess if you still want me I can stay. But I need a day or two to just figure out what I do now, find my own place, stay at the beach house, run away entirely.
Heh. Now that you know what a complete loss I am, you'd probably rather I quit.
Who really fits in with anyone? We're all misfits, even normal people. It's like puzzle pieces, they're all oddly shaped, the trick is to find the other odd shapes that fit just right with you.
Harry, I didn't so much as go on a date for the past ten years. Thomas is the first person I've been seriously involved with in sixteen... There's a reason for that.
The reason is probably because you have high standards coupled with a fear of rejection along with a condition that makes it difficult to get close to guys in the first place.
None of that means you're not worth it. Look, please don't let my brother being an idiot have a bearing on your belief that you'll be with someone.
Get rejected enough and you don't trust yourself or anyone else.
I don't... I don't want to talk about him. Or even think about him. I... thought I was falling for him. Scared the hell out of me. Guess I don't have to worry anymore.
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Re: [Private/Unhackable]
Date: Monday, October 26th, 2009 12:19 am (UTC)I'm sorry, Mercy. I really am.
Thomas has nothing to do with the shop, I don't think he's even ever been.
Re: [Private/Unhackable]
Date: Monday, October 26th, 2009 12:21 am (UTC)If he was going to be there...
Re: [Private/Unhackable]
Date: Monday, October 26th, 2009 12:30 am (UTC)He won't. And if he does, there's all sorts of fun things you can use to curse him in there.
Re: [Private/Unhackable]
Date: Monday, October 26th, 2009 12:32 am (UTC)I don't want to curse him. I just... I don't even know what I just.
I guess if you still want me I can stay. But I need a day or two to just figure out what I do now, find my own place, stay at the beach house, run away entirely.
Heh. Now that you know what a complete loss I am, you'd probably rather I quit.
Re: [Private/Unhackable]
Date: Monday, October 26th, 2009 12:43 am (UTC)No way, you should have seen me when Susan left. I stayed in my basement working on spells for weeks at a time. I smelled really bad.
Re: [Private/Unhackable]
Date: Monday, October 26th, 2009 12:46 am (UTC)I haven't let myself care about anyone like that. Not since Samuel. I should have known better. I don't - I'm better alone.
I'm sorry. That must have been hard for you.
Re: [Private/Unhackable]
Date: Monday, October 26th, 2009 03:44 am (UTC)You don't really believe that.
Re: [Private/Unhackable]
Date: Monday, October 26th, 2009 03:53 am (UTC)And yes, yes, I do believe that.
Re: [Private/Unhackable]
Date: Monday, October 26th, 2009 05:07 am (UTC)No, you don't. Because you're trying to convince yourself of it.
Re: [Private/Unhackable]
Date: Monday, October 26th, 2009 01:08 pm (UTC)Harry, I didn't so much as go on a date for the past ten years. Thomas is the first person I've been seriously involved with in sixteen... There's a reason for that.
Re: [Private/Unhackable]
Date: Tuesday, October 27th, 2009 12:24 am (UTC)None of that means you're not worth it. Look, please don't let my brother being an idiot have a bearing on your belief that you'll be with someone.
Re: [Private/Unhackable]
Date: Tuesday, October 27th, 2009 12:27 am (UTC)I don't... I don't want to talk about him. Or even think about him. I... thought I was falling for him. Scared the hell out of me. Guess I don't have to worry anymore.
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Date: Tuesday, October 27th, 2009 12:57 am (UTC)I like the real old fashioned frosting - lots of sugar and none of that light fake tasting gunk.
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