13 Howls: Forgiveness

[coyote_walking]

Samuel...

I really wish you were here. Not that I want you stuck here too, but I wish could tell you I understand what you did - why you did what you did.

And to let you know that I forgive you and that I hope I didn't hurt you too badly by running instead of staying to explain.

I hope that you forgive yourself as well.


Wow... don't know why that's so strong in my head right now. Probably a curse, but well, I do mean it. And I'd give anything to be able to tell him.

Comments

[prodigalvampire]

That sort of betrayal is a lot to try to get over. I get that.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I feel guilty about it, too.

Shortly before I came here I, well, Samuel came back into my life. I hadn't seen him in 16 years. And Bran told me that he'd been wrong in a way.

When I left, Samuel was lost. Suicidal. He left the pack for a long time.

It might not have been the love I'd thought it was, but it wasn't just mercenary either.

[prodigalvampire]

We can be pretty stupid.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

We? You mean men?

[prodigalvampire]

Yes, Men.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

You have your good points.

[prodigalvampire]

Is that so?

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Oh, I can think of one or two.

[prodigalvampire]

Do tell.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Well...

You're tall enough to reach the things I can't.

And you smell really good.

[prodigalvampire]

See, and I think women smell really good. We have so many things in common.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Did I mention the part about how you make me laugh?

[prodigalvampire]

You have once or twice.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I like that. A lot.

[prodigalvampire]

Who doesn't like laughing?

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm sure you could find someone or other who doesn't.

But you, you do it so easily. It's nice.

[prodigalvampire]

You know, most girls think I'm a jerk when I'm sarcastic.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Nah, sarcasm doesn't bother me. Not unless it's mean spirited.

You're just... funny.

[prodigalvampire]

That's just because I haven't turned the snark on you.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Oooh! Something to look forward to!

[prodigalvampire]

You are a very strange woman.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Because I enjoy snarky humor?

[prodigalvampire]

Because you're looking forward to me picking on you.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Eh, if people didn't pick on me I'd think they didn't like me.

[prodigalvampire]

I like you more and more. I don't even have to bite my tongue.