48 Howls: So hungry...

[coyote_walking]

Guess I'm making up for all those days I barely ate a thing. Today I'm just starving. Everything tastes so good and I just can't seem to get enough.

And I have this craving for jelly donuts. Weird, right?

I'm heading out to get some if anybody needs anything from the bakery.

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Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Because I want him to be happy. And I couldn't make him happy, so maybe, well... he says he is happier now, so...

Yeah, well... guys.

So... what is it?

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

He seems...different. Seeing his...whatever and stuff with you must have hit him hard.

Exactly.

The fact that it does bother me.

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

She's the love of his life. And I guess he always felt he was cheating on her with me. But... he's happier now, so that's good, right?

Because you care about him.

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Yeah. He felt he was cheating on her?

But I care that he was out having fun with another woman and kissed her while I felt like shit for being a bitch to him. I shouldn't.

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

That's what he said.

Yeah. That's a tough one. What are you going to do?

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Guess you could say I was cheating on Brennan in some way.

I don't know. He feels like shit over it and he apologized. He told me he didn't want to hurt me. But he did.

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Were you guys together?

I guess it depends on how much you care about him. We all hurt each other and I think it's easiest to hurt the people we care about.

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

That's a complicated question. We never said that. Too many really bad things happened. We sort of agreed to "go there" and we slept together but that's about it. For Brennan though sleeping together is something very important. I'm glad he's not from then.

It'd be bad to run just because I don't like the fact that it bothers me wouldn't it?

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I guess if this Brennan isn't from then and that Brennan isn't here, well... I don't think he'd want you to be alone. And you were with Kirk before he got here, so...

Sooner or later you need to stop running and deal with things. They don't go away because you run, it just complicates things even more.

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't consider it cheating anyway.

Yeah, I think I'm getting that. I care about him, that's that I guess...

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I'd have to agree.

That's not a bad thing. Now you just have to figure out how to deal with him and those feelings.

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Maybe it's not. He felt like crap, like he really knew it hurt me and he actually cared that it did. I don't really know what to do. I guess I forgive him and move on...

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

You guys have stuck with each other through a lot. Seems kind of silly to not try now.

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Guess it really does. Hell if I know why he's stuck by me through my ridiculous crap.

I'm sorry. I shouldn't be talking about my relationship crap with you. Get your donuts yet?

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

'Cause he cares about you, clearly.

Nah, it's fine. Tara and I are heading out soon, I think.

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Clearly he must be an idiot. I should talk to him sometime...I told him I needed some time and left.

For donuts and Chinese?

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Yeah. That didn't work so well for me.

I think we're going to start at Building One and work our way around the square.

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

I'd kill him if he did that. Maybe I should call him. Or give it another few weeks.

That sounds like a lot of food.

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Well, I have it on good authority that telling a guy you need some time can be taken to mean you're broken up, so... Not that I feel any bitterness about that, of course.

You can't believe how hungry I am and how good everything tastes.

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

I'd hope that James would be stupid enough to think that...

I guess I really can't. You'll end up making yourself sick.

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I'd have bet Thomas wasn't that dumb either, especially given our conversations on the subject. But it doesn't matter anyway. It was never meant to be.

I'm guessing we'll just end up with enough leftovers that we won't have to get food for weeks.

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Maybe we've been underestimating the stupidity of men. You sure about that?

At least you get one good thing out of it, less shopping trips for food.

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Not sure of anything except that I failed at yet another relationship.

And we figure out where all the best food is for later.

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

I don't think you screwed things up Mercy.

You should write it down. Rate things, stars or check marks or something.

Re: [Private | Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Doesn't matter who did what. Still another failed relationship.

We could do that.