coyote_walking | 37 Howls: Aftermath

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37 Howls: Aftermath

That was... well... I'm glad it's over.

Thomas... I have to talk to you. About the mistletoe curse.

Hey, look. No hard feelings, right? This doesn't have to affect our friendship at all. It was just a stupid curse, right?

I, um... just want you to know that as far as I'm concerned, that never happened. I mean, it did, but it was just the curse and not something, well... real. I just don't want us feeling all awkward about it okay?

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I... look. I would never cheat on you - I'd never cheat on anyone - and I feel just sick about this and I don't blame you if you're really pissed at me, but...

The other day... when there was mistletoe everywhere... I...

Damn.

I kissed a few people. It just happened and I didn't mean it to and I'm really so very sorry.

I must have missed the memo that said kissing was cheating.

I... well, sure, a kiss on the cheek or quick brush on the lips for a friend, no, that's just fine, but this...

Serious, full on, hands involved, kissing... yeah. It's not something I'd ever do when I'm involved with someone. I mean, I try to not even flirt with someone who might read to much into it if I'm involved. It's just... I...

Yeah, I would have imagined you'd consider it cheating.

[I wish I could say it was a little chuckle, but it's really just laughing] Yeah, no.

...

You don't care that I made out with your brother and Priestly? And Kara, but she kind of doesn't count because I'm not into women at all.

No, I don't mind. I know where your loyalties lie.

I'm... kind of stunned. Really stunned. I mean, yes, my loyalties are with you, but I would have thought you'd be upset by it.

...

I'm not sure I'd be as okay with it if the situation was reversed. Well, if it was a curse I'd understand.

... Is it just because this was a curse?

[Yeah, he's still laughing]

Not really, no. I mean, it's just a kiss, Mercy. And it's just sex, for that matter.

Whoah...

So, if I went off and had sex with Priestly... it wouldn't be a big deal?

This... wow. This is so far outside the realm of what I know...

I'm kind of lost.

I don't know. I don't know this Priestly guy. I wouldn't mind if you slept with Harry if that clears anything up.

Not... not really.

I guess maybe I'm a little naive, but for me, when I'm in a relationship with someone, I don't do, well... anything with anyone else.

Are you... does this mean you feel like it's okay for you to sleep with other people? Because I'd... I'd be really hurt if you were. I don't think I could be with you if you slept with someone else - other than, you know a curse you can't help and even then I'd feel a little uneasy.

What's the big deal with being exclusive? I mean...that would be like saying I could only go out to eat with you.

I guess... sex - that kind of intimacy - is important to me. It's not something I do lightly or with someone I don't really care about.

I mean, I haven't so much as dated in ten years.

But... I suppose I can see that as an incubus, sex would be different for you.

...

Thomas... are you sleeping with other people?

I...haven't...and the reason why is probably going to make this worse, not better ~~whatever "this" is turning into.~~

Okay. Go ahead. Tell me.

I haven't because I didn't want to lose control again and hurt someone I've never met before. With you it was different.

Why is it different?

You know the risks and you want to anyway.

I... don't know what to say about that.

Well, what are you thinking?

That I suddenly feel really insecure and a little frightened.

What are you scared of?

I guess that I feel like I've opened myself up so much to you and in some ways taken such a chance, what with... everything and it all feels like it could come down like a house of cards if you just find someone else you can have sex with.

I didn't realize it meant so little to you and as stupid as it probably sounds to you, it kind of makes me feel like maybe I mean that little to you. And I know, at least I really think that I'm really important to you, but...

I can't think about sex that way.

I don't know how to convince you otherwise.

About sex, you mean?

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