33 Howls: Gone

[coyote_walking]

Kyle's gone home.

I hope he's with Warren and happy and doesn't remember anything about this place.


[Private to Thomas]

Thomas... can you...

I don't want to stay here alone. It's so big and empty. I feel lost.

Can you come or...

Maybe I'll just pack up Medea and a sleeping bag and go stay at the garage.

[End Private]


I miss him so much already, but I can't be selfish and hope he comes back. I won't be.

And my 33rd year started off so well. Guess one day's all I get.

Comments

[Private]

[prodigalvampire]

Why would I make you A) stay alone or B) sleep in the garage?

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

You wouldn't, I know you wouldn't.

I just feel so unsettled and lost and... I hate asking anyone for help.

[Private]

[prodigalvampire]

I'm not just anyone. I'm on my way.

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

Just come on in. The outside door's unlocked.

I'm just... I'm curled up on my bed with Medea.

[Private]

[prodigalvampire]

Okay. I'll see you in a bit.

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

I knew any of us could go at any time, but I didn't know it would hurt so much.

[Private]

[prodigalvampire]

Of course it hurts. Do you realize how much it would kill me if Harry left?

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I guess... he's the first one I really knew well who left.

[Private]

[prodigalvampire]

I get that.

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. I hate being a wimp like this.

[Private]

[prodigalvampire]

You're not being a wimp, love. Just human.

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I guess.

I swear, I don't usually take to my bed when I'm upset.

[Private]

[prodigalvampire]

No. You usually clean.

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

And bake. Don't forget the baking.

Cheer me up enough that I feel semi-alive again and you'll probably get baked goods out of the deal.

[Private]

[prodigalvampire]

Okay, I never heard of the baked goods. I'm moving faster.

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Brownies and cookies mostly. Peanut butter and chocolate chip.

[Private]

[prodigalvampire]

Peanut butter brownies and chocolate chip cookies?

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Regular brownies, peanut butter cookies and chocolate chip cookies. Though I suppose I could find a recipe for peanut butter brownies.

Re: [Private]

[prodigalvampire]

You're too good to me.

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

You're the one coming all the way over here to hold me while I cry.

Re: [Private]

[prodigalvampire]

Hey, I'm just looking forward to brownies afterward.

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Me too.

I hate feeling like this.

Re: [Private]

[prodigalvampire]

Maybe he'll be back.

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I want him back. For me.

But I hope he stays there for him.

He's so unhappy here. Especially with Ianto and Jack and Robin and Gwen gone.

Re: [Private]

[prodigalvampire]

Not to mention I scare the crap out of him.

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Yeah.

And he's not at all happy about us.

[Private]

[prodigalvampire]

I know.

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I think, beyond the obvious, that he feels like I'm betraying whomever I'm with in his future.

Re: [Private]

[prodigalvampire]

How...do you betray someone who...hasn't happened yet?

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

You can't.

But I think in his mind he just sees me with... whoever it is.

Re: [Private]

[prodigalvampire]

I never did get that guy.

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

He's a good man. A very good man.

But incredibly loyal. And he knows I am too. So to see me with someone else...

Re: [Private]

[prodigalvampire]

...before you were with someone else is completely understandable.

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Yeah.

I get it, though. But I can't be held by it.

Re: [Private]

[prodigalvampire]

No. You're your own woman, after all.

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Always have been.

[Private]

[prodigalvampire]

I'm glad.

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I'm gonna just, just close my eyes for a minute while I wait for you.

Door's unlocked.

[Private]

[prodigalvampire]

Okay. I'll be there soon.

[OOC; want to assume he came was was just with her?]

Re: [Private]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Thomas.


[ooc: Sure.]

[rogueintent.livejournal.com]

Oh...I'm really sorry.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Yeah, thanks.

I miss him so much.

[rogueintent.livejournal.com]

It feels really wrong to say maybe he'll come back. This isn't a great place. But it still sucks that he's gone because it hurts to miss someone.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Selfishly, I want him to come back, but I'm praying he gets to stay where he's happy.