28 Howls:

[coyote_walking]

If anyone's looking for me, I'm just going to be going away for a little bit. I'm fine, I just need, I just need to be away.



I'm sorry, but I don't think I'll be able to work for you. Sorry.





He dumped me, Shal. After all this, he dumped me.

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Re: [Private/Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I tried not to care about him that much, but you already know I was losing that battle.

I can't - I can't think about that right now. It's just way too raw. If I try to look at what was good I'll break down and I'm trying so hard not to do that.

Re: [Private/Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Can't help who you fall in love with.

I'm sorry. I'm not helping much. I had a boyfriend back home, Zack. He screwed me. He came back years later and I let him into my life to have him screw me again. Then there was Richard...I opened every bit of me up to him and he died. I didn't think I'd ever want to trust or open up again. It just didn't work you know? But then there was Brennan and we got married.

Point is...eventually there will be a good one. I know, I'm probably not helping much. Not much will. But it's not your fault.

Re: [Private/Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I guess.

For me there was Samuel. I fooled around a little in college, but decided quickly that it wasn't worth it when I couldn't ever be me. Then there was Thomas. So, I blew it both times I tried. I think I'm better going back to keeping everyone at arms length.

Re: [Private/Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Do you really want to end up like me? Being suspicious of all people until you get close to them and then trying your hardest not to get close? It's a lot of work.

[notverypriestly.livejournal.com]

Hey, just remember you got people waiting here when you get back.

Re: [Private/Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Not suspicious. Just Good Ole Mercy, just one of the guys.

I don't have to avoid everyone, just refuse to look at them as anything beyond a casual friend.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Priestly. Damn. I'm sorry, did we have something planned? My life sort of... went to hell.

[notverypriestly.livejournal.com]

Noo, no no. Don't worry about anything. You sounded glum and I more wanted to make sure you know that I'll be waiting for you, cause I like you. Guess it came out harsher.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Oh, it didn't no. It came across that you cared and I really appreciated that. But then I just couldn't remember if I'd said I'd have you to the garage at some particular time.

Re: [Private/Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

I've tried that. You still end up getting attached.

Re: [Private/Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

As long as it's just friends, that's okay.

Re: [Private/Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

I understand. But you do know you can't control that right? Even I can't.

Re: [Private/Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Did it for ten years very successfully.

Re: [Private/Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Okay...but I'm here if you need anything. I'm not sure this place would allow people to not get close.

Re: [Private/Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Shal. I honestly don't knwo what I'd do without you right now. I owe you.

Damn... I hadn't thought of that. I'm just screwed, aren't I?

Re: [Private/Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

You don't owe me anything, when I have friends I do anything for them that I can.

Men suck, that's all there is to it. Anytime they're involved they screw everything up.

Re: [Private/Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Well, you know if there's ever anything you need.

Yeah. And still we don't smarten up.

[justashow.livejournal.com]

You aren't avoiding me, are you? I'm sorry I said all that yesterday, Mercy.

Re: [Private/Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

I'm good actually...really good. But thanks.

We're just not smart in that department.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I... no. I mean, yes, part of why I wanted to get away for a bit yesterday was to let you have some space from me, but no, I thought... I thought things were okay where we left them.

I just...

Yeah, well... he dumped me. And I just... you have enough to deal with without, without me. And I... I just need to find a quiet place to lick my wounds, I guess.

Re: [Private/Unhackable]

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Clearly we're not.

[justashow.livejournal.com]

What do you mean he dumped you?

Re: [Private/Unhackable]

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

I like to think it's more that all men are idiots and make our lives more difficult. I feel horrible saying that.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

It's done. We're over. He doesn't want to see me again, not even as a friend.

Says it's to protect me, of course, but the end result is the same.

[justashow.livejournal.com]

Protect you from what? Mercy...are you sure he's not just cursed?