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coyote_walking ([personal profile] coyote_walking) wrote2009-08-02 07:48 pm

13 Howls: Forgiveness

Samuel...

I really wish you were here. Not that I want you stuck here too, but I wish could tell you I understand what you did - why you did what you did.

And to let you know that I forgive you and that I hope I didn't hurt you too badly by running instead of staying to explain.

I hope that you forgive yourself as well.


Wow... don't know why that's so strong in my head right now. Probably a curse, but well, I do mean it. And I'd give anything to be able to tell him.

[identity profile] coyote-walking.livejournal.com 2009-08-03 03:56 am (UTC)(link)
I just... I want everyone to be happy and okay.

[identity profile] justashow.livejournal.com 2009-08-03 03:57 am (UTC)(link)
Everyone in the whole world?

[identity profile] coyote-walking.livejournal.com 2009-08-03 03:58 am (UTC)(link)
I know. It's stupid and naive, but...

At least all the people I care about.

[identity profile] justashow.livejournal.com 2009-08-03 03:59 am (UTC)(link)
It's not stupid and naive.

We'll get there.

[identity profile] coyote-walking.livejournal.com 2009-08-03 04:01 am (UTC)(link)
I hope so. I'm praying for it.

[identity profile] justashow.livejournal.com 2009-08-03 04:12 am (UTC)(link)
Could you save a spot in your prayers that I find a pair of pants that fit me fabulously before tomorrow?

[identity profile] coyote-walking.livejournal.com 2009-08-03 04:13 am (UTC)(link)
Okay, I have to know. What's so important about tomorrow and pants that I should put that in my prayers?

[identity profile] justashow.livejournal.com 2009-08-03 04:18 am (UTC)(link)
Jack wants to meet for lunch.

[identity profile] coyote-walking.livejournal.com 2009-08-03 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
Kyle. Thank heavens.

Your pants go to the top of my prayer list.

[identity profile] justashow.livejournal.com 2009-08-03 04:24 am (UTC)(link)
It's good, right? We can make a start.

I wish Ianto could come too.

[identity profile] coyote-walking.livejournal.com 2009-08-03 04:26 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know the whole story, but if he's having trouble coming back because of what happened back there?

It might be a lot easier for him to start feeling safe with you before he can come here.

[identity profile] justashow.livejournal.com 2009-08-03 04:30 am (UTC)(link)
I know. It's just...

Ianto needs him too. Probably more than I do right now, and I don't think I'm helping him very much.

[identity profile] coyote-walking.livejournal.com 2009-08-03 04:32 am (UTC)(link)
Not if he's in bad shape and is going to get Ianto all riled up.

And you are helping, Kyle. You are.

[identity profile] justashow.livejournal.com 2009-08-03 04:39 am (UTC)(link)
I think it would probably be the other way around. Ianto's always been able to get under Jack's skin more than anyone.

I'm fussing, not helping. I can't help it though.

[identity profile] coyote-walking.livejournal.com 2009-08-03 04:42 am (UTC)(link)
Just... give things a little more time.

He loves you. And he understands and he loves your fussing just as much as it aggravates him.