Coyote Walking

What sometimes I'm a bitch because I don't like to discuss the fact that Ashlocke did more to me than I tell people? Or sometimes I'm a bitch because I've upset Thomas because I didn't realize he was fully capable of doing something exactly like what Ashlocke did to me? Next time I'm reminded of going through a fucking year of some man who tried over and over again to convince me that we were made for each other, some man who appeared to me in my room, in my home, over and over again. Who controlled me and made me hurt people I loved and who made me want him, made me sleep with him, made me chose him over my family. Next time I'm reminded of all that I'll try to not freak out.