50 Howls: *sigh*

[coyote_walking]

An F. A nice big scarlet F. Tatooed right here on my cheek for the world to see.

Lovely.

Guess I know the things that stands for.

Thanks, City. I needed the reminder. Not.

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Not like it's anything I haven't heard before.

[prodigalvampire]

So, are you ever going to stop blaming yourself?

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Blaming myself?

[prodigalvampire]

For what happened.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Oh.

Thomas... not everything is about you. Or what happened.

But for the record, I don't blame myself for the breakup. A lot of other things, sure, but that...? I gave it everything I had. It just wasn't enough. And given what you've said I doubt anything would have been.

I just should have known better. Or earlier. Or stuck to my original no dating/no sex policy. But I fell in love and... such is life.

[prodigalvampire]

I don't know how to take you sometimes. The last time we spoke, you were blaming yourself, saying you should have known better. How you say something different. You're confusing, woman.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Look up at what I just said. I just said I felt I should have known better. I felt that way last time we spoke and I feel that way now.

I don't think now that there's anything I could have done about the breakup itself. The relationship, yeah, I suck at those and should have known better than -

Never mind. It doesn't matter. Not anymore.