48 Howls: So hungry...

[coyote_walking]

Guess I'm making up for all those days I barely ate a thing. Today I'm just starving. Everything tastes so good and I just can't seem to get enough.

And I have this craving for jelly donuts. Weird, right?

I'm heading out to get some if anybody needs anything from the bakery.

Comments

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Yeah it does...I haven't eaten much. Besides breakfast that Thomas made, it almost killed me so I'm not counting it. How are you holding up?

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Eh... I'll be okay.

Watch out for him for me, will you?

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

You sure?

Believe it or not he's the one watching out for me right now. I've been staying with him.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Not likely any of this will kill me, so...

Um... why aren't you home?

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

And what doesn't kill you makes you stronger? Or something like that. If it helps he feels like crap.

I texted Brennan about something that happened that really upset me. He didn't really seem to care, he wanted me to think about it myself or something. But I just...wanted someone to talk to. Thomas offered me a place to come and talk.

Kirk kissed another woman.

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Yeah. He's just been telling me. I don't want him feeling like crap. One of us is enough. I just hope he's happier without me. I really do.

I doubt Brennan didn't care. He might care too much if anything.

At least he didn't sleep with her?

I'm sorry.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

I doubt he will be.

No he cared he was just thinking again and trying to do what he thinks is "best" for me.

It's not a big deal...we argued. He wanted me to move in...I thought it was a joke which pissed him off. Evidently when all the people were here he got drunk and well yeah.

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I hope you're wrong.

Well, guys do that. Because they care.

Oh, ouch.

He shouldn't have kissed anyone, but I guess I can see how he got drunk and the maybe made some bad decisions. What are you going to do?

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Why?

He shouldn't think. Trust me.

Yeah. He asked me to come over and I was already to apologize for that.

It's just a kiss and...it's not like I haven't... but it's ore complicated than just him kissing someone else.

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Because I want him to be happy. And I couldn't make him happy, so maybe, well... he says he is happier now, so...

Yeah, well... guys.

So... what is it?

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

He seems...different. Seeing his...whatever and stuff with you must have hit him hard.

Exactly.

The fact that it does bother me.

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

She's the love of his life. And I guess he always felt he was cheating on her with me. But... he's happier now, so that's good, right?

Because you care about him.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Yeah. He felt he was cheating on her?

But I care that he was out having fun with another woman and kissed her while I felt like shit for being a bitch to him. I shouldn't.

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

That's what he said.

Yeah. That's a tough one. What are you going to do?

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Guess you could say I was cheating on Brennan in some way.

I don't know. He feels like shit over it and he apologized. He told me he didn't want to hurt me. But he did.

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Were you guys together?

I guess it depends on how much you care about him. We all hurt each other and I think it's easiest to hurt the people we care about.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

That's a complicated question. We never said that. Too many really bad things happened. We sort of agreed to "go there" and we slept together but that's about it. For Brennan though sleeping together is something very important. I'm glad he's not from then.

It'd be bad to run just because I don't like the fact that it bothers me wouldn't it?

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I guess if this Brennan isn't from then and that Brennan isn't here, well... I don't think he'd want you to be alone. And you were with Kirk before he got here, so...

Sooner or later you need to stop running and deal with things. They don't go away because you run, it just complicates things even more.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't consider it cheating anyway.

Yeah, I think I'm getting that. I care about him, that's that I guess...

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I'd have to agree.

That's not a bad thing. Now you just have to figure out how to deal with him and those feelings.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Maybe it's not. He felt like crap, like he really knew it hurt me and he actually cared that it did. I don't really know what to do. I guess I forgive him and move on...

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

You guys have stuck with each other through a lot. Seems kind of silly to not try now.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Guess it really does. Hell if I know why he's stuck by me through my ridiculous crap.

I'm sorry. I shouldn't be talking about my relationship crap with you. Get your donuts yet?

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[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

'Cause he cares about you, clearly.

Nah, it's fine. Tara and I are heading out soon, I think.

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[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

Clearly he must be an idiot. I should talk to him sometime...I told him I needed some time and left.

For donuts and Chinese?