34 Howls: [Accidental video]

[coyote_walking]

Mercy's clearly inanimate body was laid out on Thomas' bed where it had been since he'd brought it there Monday night. He'd cleaned it up and placed it in a place she'd recognize when she woke up.

If she woke up.

The camera was focused on the body for nearly a minute before there was a sudden startling gasp for breath and Mercy sat bolt upright with a cry, scrabbling backwards on the bed and grasping at her chest where she'd been shot.

"THOMAS!"

Comments

[rogueintent.livejournal.com]

It's what I'm supposed to do I guess. Sort of my position in the pack, to bring peace.

Not being City Dead is really good, that just sounds like it's ...creepy.

Thomas sounds a bit like a werewolf.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Sometimes I wish I had that ability. But mostly I kind of enjoy riling them up.

It's hard being outside the Pack but having them still expect you to toe the line, you know? All the downsides, none of the benefits.

City Dead... yeah. No heartbeat, no breathing...

Thomas is pretty protective of me. The difference? All he's said to me about it is that I saved that lady. That it was a good thing I was there. Can you imagine any of the werewolves doing that?

[rogueintent.livejournal.com]

I'm still learning.

I'm sort of outside the pack, you should have seen Leah when she gave me orders and I just said no. Or when Bran was shouting at me in my head and I just ignored him. I think they still expect me to listen sometimes though so I get that.

That's just...that'd be really horrible. I'm glad you didn't end up that.

No, they wouldn't. They'd have said something like you should have called me and waited for me to get there and handle it.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Oh, I would have liked to have seen that. Leah hates me.

Me too.

Yes, see! They'd have been mad I didn't wait and wouldn't have cared that this poor woman would have been robbed or raped or killed - well, it's not that they wouldn't care, just that they wouldn't want me to deal with it on my own. And if I could have waited I would have.

[rogueintent.livejournal.com]

I don't really understand that relationship. Bran ...doesn't seem to like her much himself. And Charles hates her.

That's because it's their job to protect us, but not to protect other people.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Yeah, doesn't make much sense to me either.

Unfortunately, yes. And I'm not even Pack.

[rogueintent.livejournal.com]

Charles said that Bran's wolf decided he needed a mate. Sage thought it was really funny when I made her run out of Charles' house crying. I felt bad for her though.

I think Bran may even think of you that way though. He did trust you enough to send Samuel there to get help.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I might have felt a little bad about that myself. Not a lot, mind you, but a little.

I don't know. I think he thinks of me as his, but not Pack. And he said he sent Samuel because, well... Charles can handle doing what has to be done better than Samuel. One had to come with me, one had to go to Chicago, so...

[rogueintent.livejournal.com]

She got upset because she kept telling me to "Sit." so that she could talk with me. But I didn't obey and then she realized I was "one of those" and she got angry that Charles brought me into her territory and ran out crying.

Is that really what you think? Because that's not the reason at all...

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

So she was upset that you weren't the submissive she'd thought you were. I suddenly feel much less bad that she was upset.

I... I don't know. That was part of it. But I also know Samuel... Bran said he wasn't the same after I left, that her, well, that he pined when I left, so maybe that's part of it.

[rogueintent.livejournal.com]

I think that's pretty much what it was. She did come in and talk about how Charles had to dig to the bottom of the barrels for me.

Bran sent him there because... I don't know much but he went away from the pack and something happened. When he came back he wasn't the same and Bran sent him to you to help him. Because he's suicidal and Bran doesn't want to lose him.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

She's such a bitch. Watch your back around her, Anna. If she can find a way to hurt you she will.

I don't want to lose him either. But Anna... he doesn't love me. He wants me because I can give him children. I can't - that's not enough for me. But I don't want to take the chance of losing him.

[rogueintent.livejournal.com]

Charles won't let her and I'll just make sure to stay out of her way.

I don't think they expect you to magically become his mate, they just hoped it'd help him. To figure things out and try to get better.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Definitely stay out of her way. Samuel used to protect me from her. I honestly think she would kill me if she thought she could make it look like an accident or thought she could get away with it.

I just don't know what to do. Between him and Adam... it's a challenge. I have really strong feelings for both of them, but... tie myself to an Alpha or really dominant werewolf? I can't imagine it.

[rogueintent.livejournal.com]

I didn't realize she was that bad. Do you have any idea what her problem is?

I don't think it's that bad. But then again Charles isn't an Alpha, he's just more dominant than all of the other Alpha's.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

She hates me because I can have children. And she managed to get the other women to hate me too for the same reason.

I just... werewolf society is violent and claustrophobic. I tried very hard for 16 years to stay away from it. Couldn't avoid Adam since he built a damn house behind mine, but other than infrequent run-ins there I kept to myself. Till now.

[rogueintent.livejournal.com]

I didn't know that we couldn't have children until Charles told me. But I don't see that as a reason to hate someone else.

Bran and the others aren't near as claustrophobic as the other pack I was with. But they're all violent, I guess you just can't escape that part.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

I don't think Leah needs a lot of excuse to hate.

Nope, it comes with the territory.

[rogueintent.livejournal.com]

She sounds great.

Pretty much...

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Be glad you didn't grow up as a coyote pup in her pack.

You just have to learn to live with it.

[rogueintent.livejournal.com]

I'm very glad of that, that must have been really horrible.

That's all you can do sometimes in life.

[coyote-walking.livejournal.com]

It wasn't too terrible. I avoided her as much as I could and my foster parents were great. It's just hard to know you don't belong anywhere.

More often than we like, yes.